As I was thinking of a title for this blog that would convey what I am joyfully taking up, God brought to mind a note that I had written halfway through my 30 Day hiatus from social media back in October 2016. It must have been from a sermon that I had listened to, but I wrote down, “Pursue what’s now, not what’s next. What’s now is preparing you for what’s next.” That quote meant enough for me to write it down, but it has a much greater significance to me now, more than a year later. Even more amazing is the reference I had also noted that day was Isaiah 55. I must have mentioned in previous posts how God has been using Isaiah 43:19, but He has also been using this portion of Scripture to transform my thinking over the past year. Every time I see it, I know that God wants me to pay attention.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
When I think of how God has led me to where I am today, I know His thoughts and His ways are perfect. When I think of how these things that I have heard over a year ago, that were planted in my heart and mind by God, and are now beginning to grow, I see how faithful God is to His word and to His promises.
Looking back, I wish that I would have enjoyed my college days more instead of constantly thinking about finishing. I wish I had enjoyed my single days more instead of always looking forward to marriage. I wish I enjoyed my child free days. So now, I KNOW that despite how utterly exhausting it is, I need to be present and enjoy this stage of life with young kids now. Maybe that’s part of what these last few weeks have been about, getting me to just be still. In the midst of it, God had already shown me what to do.
I laugh to think about it. THIS. This blog….THIS is the thing that I’m supposed to do, at least for now. This thing that I never wanted to do because I didn’t consider myself to be a good enough writer, and I didn’t want the pressure of having to write regularly. I mean, I created a magazine expressly for the purpose of not having to write my own stuff! How many ways did I try to run from what God was calling me to do? Amazingly, blogging requires me to be present. I write the best when I’m in my thoughts. Also, it doesn’t take up much of my time so I am able to be present with my family. His ways are higher than my ways.
What about the book? There will be a book…I know that God is faithful to His word. There will likely be many books. I know that right now, this is where I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to pursue. So I will do it joyfully, and pursue it with my whole heart and live in the present.